7/18/15

Goals

Blog at least twice a month

Journal more often

Practice instruments more often

More water, less soda

Graduate with honors

Continue pushing GSA in a productive way

Make enough money to go on the New Orleans trip

Have a good start to my senior year

7/14/15

Things You Should Know About High School (3)

It's finally hit me that in one month I'll be starting my senior year of high school. In just one week my first of many lasts will begin as I go to my final band camp. I have a year of saying "oh my god this is the last time I'm going to do this" and "ha can you believe you still have another year of that."
But really, by this time next year I'll be awaiting the start of many 'firsts' in my life as a college student. And that's really weird to think about. So instead I'm gonna go back to a type of writing that I was found of, and reminisce on some of the things I've learned in the past three years.

There's no way to do it all
School is filled with so many activities and clubs and sports. Yes, it's important to try something and to do the things that you enjoy. But one important thing I learned as a freshman is that doing it all makes you a very, very tired person. My freshman year I was in GSA, band (marching and concert), concert choir, Speech and Drama, and I took guitar lessons. Let it be known that Speech and Drama had a lot of little sub-groups to join as well and I did like all of them. It was easier to balance that year because I was too young to work and it's not like I could drive so I didn't go out all the time. But I usually had a practice for something everyday, plus competitions and concerts. Add that to homework and trying to keep a social life and you've probably gone crazy. Find the things you love and stick with them, but also care for yourself. 

Stuff Happens
Sometimes you go to homecoming two years in a row with no date. (me). 
And sometimes you get sick on the day of the quiz and you forget to ask the teacher about it and they refuse to let you make it up. And yes, sometimes you will forget that today was the day you run the mile in P.E and you wear a really nice outfit with a little too much makeup to be sweating and you come inside and you can feel your face melting off and it sucks because PE is your second class of the day. (also me.)
But it's okay. 
I don't remember much of what the other kids in my grade did, and I can assure you they don't remember everything about me. I don't remember January 13th, 2014. I bet you can barely remember it either unless it's like your birthday or something. 
So everything will be okay. Just let things go a little bit. 

Kids are total assholes
Sorry, there was really no other way to put that. People can just be plain awful. You can't help everyone. There's always gonna be a group of people that you can't stand and you wanna say something, but sometimes it's better to not. (Unless they're bullying you or others then you politely kick their damn ass.) (again sorry there's just no better way to say that)
There's obnoxious girls, boys, teachers, and everything else. Just do yourself a favor and don't be one of them. 

WHEN YOU ARE WALKING IN THE HALLWAY
STAND ON ONE SIDE
WALK A DECENTLY FAST PACE
DONT STOP SUDDENLY
DONT TAKE UP THE ENTIRE HALLWAY WITH YOUR FRIENDS
AND FOR THE LOVE OF EVERYTHING GOOD IN THIS WORLD IF YOU STEP ON THE BACK OF MY SHOE AND IT COMES OFF SLIGHTLY YOU BETTER PRAY THAT YOU WAKE UP TOMORROW

Sometimes things don't go as you planned
Between your freshman and senior year, a lot of things about you and your life are going to change. Your going to have different thoughts and opinions and you're going to have parts of your personality change. You may think that they won't. And you may promise your friends that no matter what happens you're always gonna be together, but sometimes that just doesn't happen. (trust me on that one)
Sometimes your plans change. And maybe it's for the better. Two years ago I was kinda an ass. If I didn't like you when we first met, I probably never would. I made harsh decisions about people, and I thought that certain things were funny but really they were just mean. But a lot has changed. I don't have the same close friends anymore, and I'm actually friends with a lot of the people I thought I never would like. Because people change, and thank god the people I was with did, because if I was still the way I was I wouldn't have done some of things I never knew I wanted to. I'm more adventurous and accepting. 

Yeah, high school sucks and whatnot, but, you need to embrace all the awful and make your time worth it. I hate to sound all cheesy high school movie like, but you're going to learn a lot about yourself. You're going to change and you're going to watch the people you've known for forever do the same. And then you're going to graduate and move on with your life. That's just the way it goes. So make sure you make it sometime you can look back on and not regret your decisions. 

1/11/15

Phases

Sometimes I like to think about the little facts that I've learned. Like how we're all made a tons and tons of little atoms and so is everything else and they're all bumping around so technically we've never actually touched anything it's just the feeling of atoms touching atoms. And whether or not that's completely true, it's just something that makes me think. My atoms have bumped into so many other atoms and those have bumped into others, so in a way it's like having touched every other atom in the world. And how many atoms did I have to go through before I found yours.

11/24/14

I Have Learned

I've written several of those "Things You Should Know About High School" posts. And while I still find the things that I said to be true, it never really proved whether or not I learned anything from those things. Let's get one thing straight: High School is definitely as cheesy and cliche as books/movies make it out to be. But it's not all so bad. I'm a junior now, and I started this blog way back in the seventh grade. (Although I am trying to erase all proof that I existed before age 15)
But let me tell you, I've learned quite a bit about myself in that span of time.

1. Everything Works Itself Out
I've spent one too many nights stressing in my sleep over something, only to have it not matter in the slightest by the time the next day rolls around. Yes, your project/paper/homework is fine. If you put in the right amount of time to get it done, it'll be okay. And yes, you're going to argue with people every now and then. We're people. We disagree. If it's serious enough to be that mad over, you're taking yourself too seriously. 

2. Yes, You Look Good
I have spent the last three years of high school worrying about my appearance. I've never taken a no-makeup Monday. Not once. And yes, that is partially due to my low esteem issues, but worrying about impressing people all the time is pretty far up on the list as well. You look just as good as the girl/guy sitting next to you whether you're wearing yoga pants and a hoodie, or a dress. All that matters is that you're comfortable with what you're wearing. Because in ten years, no one will remember what you wore on Tuesday, or if you wore makeup or not one day. It's cheesy, but they'll remember the way that you acted to them and others. 

3. Nothing Is Permanent 
School ends, and you all move on with your life. Some of you will move away, and some of you will end up in the same college sipping Starbucks and talking about the good ole days. The teacher that you couldn't stand will be nothing more than a horror story you tell to others. Your exes? Who really cares. And your friends? You can always hope that you end up in the same place, but if nothing else, you'll be able to stay in contact and continue to support each other. 

4. Do What You Want 
I've always been afraid that if I do something wrong, everyone will hate me. But the truth of it all is, you won't be wrong. If you want to join a team, you join that team. You want to ask that guy out? Do it. The worst they can say is no. You have the power to change the way you're life goes. 

5. You Are Good Enough
This is the hardest one to accept sometimes. I went through so much of my life afraid to open my mouth, because I was afraid. I always worried that people would reject what I was saying, or that maybe I was annoying them, or maybe I was just too much of a bother. The amount of missed friendships and relationships I've had is amazing. (Here comes the cheesy saying) You are the only 'you' in this world. You are unique, and you are good enough. No, he/she is not out of your league. No, they probably don't hate you. You're opinion does matter. I still have trouble believing people when they tell me things they like about me. I've never been able to fully accept a compliment, because I've always felt like the person giving it felt like they were forced to say something nice. But they weren't. When you're friends says you look nice, she means it. When the person in the hall says they like your shoes, they mean it. And when your boyfriend/girlfriend tell you that you're the best, by God, they better mean it. 


Be unapologetically you. 

11/9/14

Reminiscing

Hey there.
If anyone is actually reading this, which would be surprising, then they'd know that it's been well over a year since I've done anything on this blog. This is due to a lot of things. Lack of time, lack of commitment, and just forgetting my login info like an idiot.
I also found several other websites that sparked my interest and stole my time.
I was going through some old Facebook pictures of mine, when i saw a screenshot of an old post I made, and I thought about all the stuff I had written and everything I had said, and then I typed the old URL into my search bar and stalked my old self. And it reminded me of how different things were then. And how much I enjoyed being part of the blogger world. No, I wasn't particularly successful, but I had a small handful of people who would read and comment, and I can't help but miss that.
So I spent a big portion of my time looking through all my old emails and passwords, and I finally found the right one to get on here.
What exactly does that mean?
I'm not sure.
Why make promises that I can't keep and say I'll write all the time? All I currently know is that I want to start again. It's like a journey. I can go back and look at who I was and what I thought years ago. Which is pretty cool, and a little awful because I refuse to believe I existed before the age of 15. But the thought still counts. Three years from now I can look through here and remember.
So let's just see what happens.

11/28/13

Let us all still be thankful tomorrow.

With today being Thanksgiving and all, I thought it would be the perfect time to do the yearly "thankful for" post. There's a lot of things in this world, some big, some small, some that don't even seem like things to be thankful for, but they are. So I thought I'd share them all with you.

001. The way your favorite food tastes after not having it in quite some time.
002. When cats purr really loud.
003. Internet connections
004. Music that just gets you
005. Seeing a new movie for the first time.
006. When someone says something and you just know you and your best friend are thinking the exact same thing, and you have a mental connection for .003 seconds
007. Birthdays
008. Watching people greet their friends in public when they didn't know their friend would be there.
009. Books
010. Those moments when you've stayed up so late that you're not even tired anymore.
011. When you remember what you're looking for
012. Half days of school.
013. typing with different formats 
014. Finding out you have things in common with other people.
015. friends
016. That even though I complain about living here all the time, I live in a town where there's pretty good acceptance of all people no matter who they are. Not to say that we don't have problems, but we could have it so much worse. 
017. Understanding a geometry problem for once.
018. Teachers who don't assign textbooks.
019. When your nails match the whole overall look of your outfit. 
020. Clothes. Shoes. Purses. Did I already say shoes?
021. When you make someone laugh so hard they cry, or someone does it to you.
022. Watching your family interact with each other 
023. When you're at church and the pastor says something that hits you right in the heart because what he's said is beautiful and true.
024. Playing board games with friends and family. 
025. When animals know you're upset and just kinda lick your face and sit there with cute eyes.
026. Seeing someone instantly become happier when you compliment them, and the overall feeling of being complemented. 
027. When your friends parents basically become your other set of parents.
028. Keeping in touch with people in your life whether they moved away, or you met them online, or you just don't see them that often.
029. Having phone conversations with your friends for hours even though you see each other all the time and have nothing really substantial to say.
030. When people appreciate your opinions and things that you have to say. 


11/27/13

Let the rain come down

November. | via Tumblr

sometimes we forget who we are.
 we say things, 
we do things, we feel things.
but they aren't us. 
we only allow ourselves 
to act
to behave
to feel
the way we think we deserve
sometimes you need to feel the rain
to dance in it
to sing in it
to become swept away
so let the rain come down
and maybe then
just maybe
you can find yourself again.

11/14/13

M.I.A (But Welcome Back)

Yes, I do realize that it's been exactly one month and a day since I've written anything on here. And there's no excuses to really be made, because at the end of the day, when you're a blogger, you have to write when you're ready to write.

And thankfully, I'm ready.


I'll make no promises. However, for this past month I've been thinking to myself about ways to update and write and be here more frequently. The good news is, I have a plan for once.
I'll be updating as regularly as I can by queuing posts, and making short updates, and challenging myself to think of new things. New stories, new pictures, new inspirations.

I want to blog. And if it's a successful thing, then that's all the better. I'm not gonna lie, reaching a hundred, or even more followers, would be great. It's something I've wanted since the day I started this. So together, as both author and reader, let's start over. Clean slate. New blogging experience.
For those of you who have been here right though the beginning...we've grown up. I've grown up a lot since my first silly post on here about going to see the latest twilight movie. Three years in the making on this page. I'd rather not give up.

Bonjour

10/13/13

Homecoming 2013











Just thought I'd share a few cute moments from this weekends homecoming dance. I know I've been MIA on the blog for awhile. Update post to come. 

Xx~Madalyn-Elizabeth~xX

9/7/13

Sophomore (part 1)








001. First day of school with Elle
002. Moderately matching Disney shirts with Makena
003. Black Light Bowling with Joli
004. Holiday World over Labor Day Weekend with Elle
005. Riding the little kid rides because we can.
006. Riding the dolphin because dolphins are cool.

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